I will take the day off from writing. I will share with you a (not so big) secret;
we are in this together. The reason I volunteered to write, was
because I was hoping that in the zechus of my writing I would be zocheh
to overcome this terrible disease that has plagued my life and
continues to torment me even today.
I've made strides over the past several months, but today I will spend the time sadly reflecting on why after all this time and effort I still
can't fully control myself. I will lament and feel remorse for the
words I spoke, just yesterday. Maybe I should go back and read some of
the things that we wrote, take stock, and strengthen my commitment to
the future, before I write again.
"Zachor Eis Asher Asa Hashem L'Miriam BaDerech B'Tzaischem MiMitzrayim"
The Ramban and other Rishonim count, among
the Mitzvos Aseh Min HaTorah, the mitzva of remembering and saying with
your mouth each day what Hashem did to Miriam when she spoke about her
brother Moshe. The Chofetz Chaim in Shaar Tvunah Perek 12 says that
being Mikayem this mitzva can save you from the aveira of Lashon Hara.
More than just saying the pasuk, says the Chofetz Chaim, one must think
about the incident in order for it to have its intended effect.
to our Shemiras HaLashon Yomi in our audio section. Two halachos a day
according to the Luach. www.revach.net/audioarchives.php
RS, Gateshead UK, 2008-11-26 01:41:27 Your sentiments are themselves a result of the valiant effort you are making (besides for the tremendous zikui horabim!) in the life-long battle against this awful disease we all suffer from. See what the Chafetz Chaim ztl writes in the footnote at the end of the Hakdomo to his monumental sefer Chafetz Chaim, that one (of the many) benefits resulting in the study of his seforim is that even if we occasionally slip, - our conscience will be alert to what we have done and we will feel remorse and the need to improve! All this is only possible for those who are actively involved in combat with the enemy! (Also refer to the explanation given by Hagaon Rav Matisyohu Salomon shlita at last years Tisha Beav Event video, to explain why, despite all the new wave of awareness, we are not necessarily eradicating this awful illness.) Chazak Veematz! Keep fighting vaHashem yihye beezrecha!